AFTER ALL THESE YEARS Episode 2

Olu I’m two weeks late, I’m scared I informed him.

Adejoke you can't be pregnant, we always use protection except for few times that we got carried away. Those few times are enough to get me pregnant

I think you should get tested first before jumping into conclusion he said

I will get a pregnancy test strip from the pharmacy on my way back from school I said as I dress up preparing for lectures.

Later in the day, we both came back from school, and I prepared dinner and dished it into a breakable plate. We do eat together.

Babe you are not eating, you are just staring at the food he said looking directly into my eyes. How will I eat, I’ve bought the pregnancy test strip and I don’t know what the result will say. I’m seriously scared

 Just calm down, let’s see the result first Olu what if I’m pregnant

When will you have the test he asked

First thing tomorrow morning

Just calm down

You are just saying I should calm down, you are a man it won’t affect you

You think it won’t affect me Lets just wait till tomorrow, now eat your food

I've lost my appetite I stood up and sat on the bed.

You know starving yourself won’t solve the problem. I’ll cover the food, you can eat when you regain your appetite

I lay on the bed to sleep but I couldn’t sleep all through the night. I thought of my life and my future. I came from a godly home where my parents did their best in raising godly children. But see what love made me do.

I know it every day that what I’m doing was wrong, it’s against my belief. I never intended to have sex in my relationship not to talk of been a live in girlfriend.

I did all this for the sake of love, the pressure was much from Olu that I had to succumb. Fine staying together makes us bond well but I wonder what we stand to gain aside from the bonding and regular sex but see where it landed me.

I’m pregnant I’m very sure of that, I’ve never been this late since I started menstruating, worst is between two or three days, then I’ll see my period" I thought.

While I was still thinking about the mess I got myself into, I felt his hand on my body because I was backing him so I didn’t see him, he was trying to get me aroused.

Olu take your hands off me this minute I said angrily.

Babe I’m just trying to help ease your worries

By having sex with me I doubt if you are bothered a bit

Off course I am, I just want to.

Do you even love me, because if you do you won’t be thinking about sex right now

I can’t believe you just said that, you know I love you"

Which i'm beginning to doubt, just let me be, pleaseeee

I’m very sorry my love, I thought it will help. Stop giving yourself headache we are not even sure yet

I get it, it’s my body not yours and I know if something it’s not right

I took one of the pillows, stood up from the bed and lie on the rug.

Please come back to bed Adejoke, I won’t touch you he pleaded.

I pretended as if I did not hear him. I just lay there on the rug thinking about what the test result will be.

I woke up the next morning, I took the PT strip into the bathroom, I sat on the toilet sit and pee on the stick. I waited for some minutes and to proof my suspicion, I saw two red lines, meaning I’m pregnant. I screamed.

Olu rushed into the bathroom and held me. He took the stick from me, he saw two red lines which I’m sure he doesn’t understand the meaning.

He took the PT strip pack from the top of the sink where I put it. He read the instructions and he realized what was going on.

So two red lines means positive he said and sighed heavily. He was sweating profusely.

He took me into his arms to console me but I cried the more.

Olu I’m finish, my father will disown me that’s if he didn’t kill me first I said in tears.

Adejoke take it easy well figure it out

You can’t understand, have brought shame upon myself and family. My mum is a deaconess while my dad is an elder in church. I’m the first child what example will I set for my siblings I wept uncontrollably.

I understand, we are both not ready for this, just put yourself together

You are a guy, I’m going to be the object of ridicule not you I said amidst tears. He wipe my tears with his hands.

Babe, take your bath and lets prepare for school it’s almost 7am and we both have 8 oclock lecture

Go ahead and take your bath, let me stay at home and mourn my woes

Let’s stay at home together then, I can’t leave you all alone, not like this

Don’t miss lectures because of me, don’t worry I won’t commit suicide. I know better than that, suicide is a direct flight to hell

I’m not leaving, well stay here together

We were like that for hours, we did not bath or eat. We were both engrossed in our thoughts. He sent a text message to the class rep that we won’t be coming to class that very day. One thing is sure the whole class we noticed our absence.

Despite the text we still got so many calls. He picked some, I didn’t pick any, it got to a stage I had to put off my phone.

Both of us are just in the room we didn’t say a word to each other.

I thought of so many things, should I run away But where will I go I thought.

Adejoke! He broke the silence.

Yes

What do you want us to do about the pregnancy

I wish I’m dreaming, I want to wake up and realize all this is a dream

This is real

What do you want us to do about it I asked him the same question he asked me.

We have just two options here, it’s either we keep it or will abort it.

Let me think and weigh my options I said.

I think we have to decide fast

I’m keeping it

Adejoke as much as I’m happy that you are carrying my child, and that I can father a child, you know we are not ready for this, we can’t take care of this child

What are you insinuating

Abortion, that’s the only option we’ve got

Abortion! Murdering an innocent child! I sighed heavily

Adejoke, I’m ashamed of myself, this is my seed we are talking about here, I want to see my flesh and blood too but I can’t bring a child into this world when I’m not ready

What if something goes wrong in the process

Whatever happens, I will stand by you, I will never leave you. I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. That I promise you

Olu, I hope the tune of the song won’t change tomorrow. Hope it’s not just an empty promise

Do you want me to swear or some thing

No! You don’t have to I said although deep down inside of me I wish I could make him swear an oath, but I know it’s not right.

I sighed heavily and picked my phone and dialed my cousin’s number. Grace is a close and trusted cousin, we always have each other’s back. She once had an abortion and she confided in me then.

Grace I’m pregnant I said immediately she picked the call.

Preg what Adejoke why you should have been more careful, I told you my experience and it was not a good one Grace lamented.

I noticed she was already close to tears from the sound of her voice.

God! I wish this never happened to you she said sniffing.

TBC....