Yea that was
a very sensitive question that always pinched me whenever someone asked me
about it. I was well employed and good looking but unfortunately I wasn’t
successful with women. I had to run away from the few female friends I had when
I noticed that they were all interested in ripping me off than giving me the
love I needed. I had to resign myself to the fate of being a bachelor with no
girlfriend. Perhaps because of the drink, perhaps because I felt free with her,
I opened up. I told her I had no girlfriend not because I didn’t want one but
because I was yet to find the person who would give me the love I needed
without weighing me down problems and issues.
Blessed
silently listened to all I said and when I was done, she said nothing which
kind of made me feel that she was asleep or something. I had to lean forward to
check out her face only to be held tightly by her as she gave me an unexpected
kiss that shocked and left me trembling.
‘’Jeff’’ she
breathed. ‘’noooo’’ I cautiously stammered, softly pushing her away. I was
scared of hurting her but I just couldn’t help it.
‘’’what?’’
Blessed asked as I gently pushed her face away from mine. Somehow I felt a bit
confused and embarrassed at the same time. It really was the first time a girl
was making the first move on me, but then she was drunk. She was far from being
in control of her mind.
‘’you are
drunk. I think it’s time to go to bed’’ I breathed and helped her up.‘’come on
Jeff, stop treating me like a baby. I’m not drunk’’ she insisted but I refused
listening to her, instead I softly dragged her to her room.
There wasn’t
any doubt the drink she had was telling on her and so the right thing to do was
what I did by taking her to her room to rest. But on my way out of her room, I
ran into Lydia who was heading to her own room from the sitting room. She gave
me one kind of suspicious look and smile that left me very nervous and
defensive.‘’hmmmmm I see you guys are
hitting it off pretty well?’’ she asked.‘’nooooo we were just
drinking outside and she had way too much drink. I had to help her to her room.
That’s it’’ I answered innocently while she shrugged.
‘’we have a
lot to talk during breakfast tomorrow. I guess you won’t shy away from eating
with me?’’ she asked with a smile and walked past me before I could say
anything.
I was
restless all night long as I wondered what could be going on in Lydia’s mind. I
equally couldn’t help but wonder what Blessed’s game plan was all about. I was
scared of losing my job for nothing and I knew I had to be extremely cautious
when dealing with the two ladies because no matter how
matured they
looked, they still had a very fragile mind.
8am, the
next day As I headed to the dining room for breakfast, I ran into Blessed who
smiled as soon as her eyes fell on me. ‘’I know I embarrassed myself yesterday.
I’m so sorry’’ she apologized.
‘’oh it’s
nothing’’ I answered politely, feeling relaxed. ‘’so we are cool with each
other then?’’ she asked while I nodded. Together we headed to the dining room
where Lydia was waiting. To be candid I was very nervous and a bit uncomfortable
having dinner with the two ladies but I had my cover to protect and had to act
cool.
‘’you know I
still find it difficult remembering you or your family?’’ Lydia kind of asked
as we faced the meal before us. Blessed quickly came to my rescue.‘’don’t tell
me you are really yet to figure out Jeff’s identity?. How come you allowed him
to come here with us then?’’ she asked Lydia who rolled her eyes.
‘’I’m sorry;
it’s just that I need help in getting it together. He looks like the son of our
family friend way back in Lagos but it’s a long time ago nau. I guess 1993
period or so. I just want to be very sure’’ she insisted. ‘’but we have already
discussed this issue in your room. Come on where are your
manners?.
Don’t you know you are embarrassing him?’’ Blessed pushed on.
‘’I’m so
sorry Jeff. It’s just that I already forgot most of my childhood memories but
concerning the job thing, I promise to talk to my dad about it. He will
definitely get something for you before the week runs out.
I promise
you that’’ she assured me while I silently smiled. Of course there was nothing
there to say. Blessed on her own part gave me a knowing look filled with
unspoken words which I clearly understood. We were surely using Lydia’s head
without her knowing it.
But it was
all for her own good. My only problem and fear was Blessed who could eventually
turn back to use all the secrets and lies against me.‘’aww I have to go get
more sauce’’ Blessed suddenly breathed, standing up with a small plate.‘’I will
be back in a jiffy’’ she added and headed to the kitchen while Lydia and I
exchanged glances. ‘’she’s so much in love with you. Tell me the truth, you
guys are dating right?’’ she asked curiously.
‘’no we are
not’’ I truthfully answered, but instead of facing her food, she left her eyes
on me waiting for me to explain further. And I had to come up with a pretty
good defense.
‘’you see in
my condition I can’t afford to be in any relationship. I have nothing to offer
anyone and I can’t just take advantage of a beautiful and nice girl like
Blessed because of my selfishness or maybe what I stood to gain from her.
Secondly i have no special feelings for her. I value her friendship and care
but that’s it. I can’t deceive her and pretend to love her only for us to end
up hating each other tomorrow. She’s way better off without me. She deserves
the best guy. My priority now is to make out something for myself’’ I softly
explained while she dropped her eyes as if my words found a place in her heart.
It was just as if she was so touched.
Blessed
showed up from the kitchen that very moment and stared at us with suspicion. It
was just as if she perceived something, she noticed something that made her
uncomfortable.
Yes I really
had no strong feelings for Blessed but supposing we met in a different
circumstance or position, perhaps I would have gladly tried her out but in this
situation I couldn’t risk it. What I felt for her wasn’t just enough to risk my
job and career for.
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